10/20/2005 Zach Stands By His Decisions

"All of the people from "Dixie's Welcome Home Party" plus a few others gather once more in the living room of the Chandler Mansion. At first, they all stare at Di, who remains at the entranceway, whispering to Tad. After a few snide remarks from Adam, the ball starts rolling. Di steps forward and says that all of the love they gave her as they welcomed her back into their lives and their hearts was undeserved. She notes that while she never meant to hurt any of them (because truthfully, she felt the family - and its value - was bigger than any lie), she knows now that she must confess her misdeeds. She admits that she wanted so much for her lie to be true - because being there, in the lie, filled their hearts with love that had been missing for 3 years. Finally, after much hemming and hawing, she admits that she's not Dixie - but rather her half-sister. Adam immediately jumps all over her case, announcing that he knew from the moment she showed up that she was a fake. He tries to continue the tirade, but his new bride cuts him off, noting how tactless he is. They all are informed that no one knew that a half-sister existed, which is why it wasn't taken into consideration during the DNA test. While most of the crowd stands in shocked silence, a tearful JR begs Di for a reason, any reason, why she would do something so horrible. Di tells him that because things changed, she had no choice. She tells them that she needed to be a part of the family, and that the amazing thing was that it turned out they needed her too. JR, unwilling to believe that he has now lost his mother for a second time, tries to blame it on his father.

Adam starts pointing fingers at Krystal and Babe, noting their lack of reaction, and surmises that they knew all along since Krystal and Di were jail mates. Before he can berate them any further, Di steps in and reminds him that both Krystal and Babe came to him with the truth a long time ago. It got Krystal out of jail and landed Di in the middle of a DNA test. At the time, she crossed her fingers and hoped that she had enough DNA to match Dixie. Joe notes that when the options presented were Dixie or a complete stranger, they had no choice but to conclude she was a match. Del comes in, and hearing snippets of the conversation, realizes that Di had, or was about to confess. He tries to snatch the confession back, but Tad threatens to make him pay if he goes any farther with his attempt. Di says that her home was originally Crow Hollow, but because she was the last in a long line of mouths to be fed and bodies to be clothed, she was given away to her aunt, Louise Kirby, who then raised Di as her own. Di didn't know anything different until she met Del. She fills them in on the one conversation she had with Dixie while Dixie was in Europe - after they found out about each other. The warmth in Dixie's voice when she spoke about her family was something unlike anything that Di had ever heard before. All of her words sink in and then Jamie confirms that not only has she been lying - but Dixie didn't survive. After the reality becomes a little more solid, Tad explains that while he wasn't investigating her, Di told him the truth via a letter that was only to be opened in the event of her death. Brooke points out that Di's confession then was not noble, but done because she got caught. Di tries to explain that the feelings that she experienced trying to do what she felt Dixie would want (such as healing the rift between Jamie and JR, and providing another person that Little A could count on), but the anger in the room builds until she dares to utter the words "I wish I were Dixie." The dam breaks and Opal hauls off and slaps her across the face. The onslaught of insults, accusations and threats begins, building to a frenzy of incomprehensible din. JR, unable to take any more, yells for all of them to stop. Still clinging to the belief that Di is really his mother, he begs her to tell everyone that she made it up. He thinks that she is lying about who she is now to hide from the criminals associated with The Dragon. He promises to keep her safe, but all of his pleading simply makes her cry harder. She tells him that she can't bear to confess her sins again. Jamie tries to convince his brother that Di is not worth pleading. Hurt, angry and confused, JR proclaims that he doesn't really know ANYONE in the room and runs out to the patio.

Within moments, Tad goes after him. He tells JR that no one loved Dixie more than the two of them, and no one grieved harder for her when she died. In addition, they were the ones that gained the most when they thought she had returned to them. JR, still grappling with the emotions that raged within, tries to blame everything on Tad: perhaps he was in on some plan with Adam or David, and that's why the woman in the Chandler living room turned her back on him. Tad tells his stepson that Dixie would never do anything like that, and that he felt obligated to make sure that JR knew the truth. Eventually, Tad and JR could have gotten their relationship back to where it used to be but Tad didn't want to rebuild it on a lie. Grief spilling over, JR insists that Tad never tells him the truth but his protests are weak in the face of his tears. Tad catches JR as he finally collapses, and apologizes that the truth is breaking his heart.

Back inside, as everyone stares at Di, she admits that she was wrong.

Kendall continues to blast her husband for leaving her unprotected when the bombshell of Ryan's survival hit. She notes that while Greenlee may be hearing the whole truth from Ryan at this moment, she needs to know if Zach intentionally kept her in the dark. Zach tells his wife that he lied, and surprisingly - she says that she's honored...that he decided to tell her the truth without being forced. She tries to make him feel badly for what he chose to do, but Zach doesn't cave. He tells Kendall that he found Ryan at the bottom of a cliff, both of them surprised at his survival. While it wasn't Zach's idea to stay dead, Zach did support Ryan's choice and helped him stay that way. He admits that he was afraid that the next time Ryan decided to raise a hand to Kendall or Greenlee, he wouldn't be there to stop it from happening. Kendall mentally revisits the day that Ryan told her he would go off a cliff before he would hurt Greenlee. She admits that she identifies with that kind of despair - it's the same feeling she had when she thought that she shot Ryan, and she chose to walk into the ocean. None of that, however, explains why Zach lied to her. He tells her that he did it to save her. Enraged, Kendall wants to know how he dared to think it was his place to save her from a man that she loved way more than she ever liked Zach. Zach reminds her that while she talks about the look in Ryan's eyes when he was afraid that he would hurt Greenlee, she never talks about the look they held when he was at Fight Club...or when he destroyed the suite at Zach's hotel. The problem, he notes, is that she and Greenlee only remembered the good parts about Ryan after he was gone. Zach knew, however, that Ryan was a monster that needed to be stopped - words that Ryan used to describe himself. Zach further notes that he was glad Ryan was gone - because he wasn't going to let Ryan hurt Kendall anymore. Kendall asked how he could watch Greenlee needlessly grieve and suffer. Zach tells her that Greenlee was suffering for a long time before Ryan left: because he chose to believe his psychotic brother over her, and because she believed she was the only person in the world that could save him. Kendall thought that the baby could have saved him, but Zach interjects with a question: did she think that Zach knowing his own son made him a better man? With no answer to offer, Zach tells her that Ryan didn't trust himself to be around Greenlee - and he agreed. Zach wants to keep Greenlee, Kendall and the baby that she is carrying safe from Ryan. Kendall is appalled that with a few simple words, Zach could have chosen to end both her and Greenlee's suffering - but chose not to. Zach told her that Ryan wanted to stay dead. She asked if Zach hid him out in the shed, and Zach confesses that Ryan was in Nova Scotia with his sister. It dawns on her that Ryan's location was the reason Zach freaked out when Greenlee announced where she went. Kendall thinks the reaction was because Zach was afraid of being found out. Zach tells her that his role in Ryan's "death" being unearthed was inconsequential to him. The thing he is concerned about is what Ryan's return will do to her and Greenlee. Kendall needlessly reminds him again that she is carrying Ryan's child - and wants to know how Zach could have let her surrogacy continue, knowing what he knew. Zach tells her that he wasn't wrong for the choices he made - so Kendall demands that he tell her what comes next. Zach admits that he doesn't know - and Kendall is flabbergasted that he let her see that flaw. He tells her that he tried to stop her, but she doesn't believe him. She asks him to explain his attempts. Zach informs her that it was too late by the time he tried, so he opted to stand behind her as she chose to stand behind Greenlee when she was pregnant. Kendall swears that she did that out of love, and questions whether Zach actually gives a damn about her. She reminds him that because he kept quiet, all he gave to her, and to Greenlee, was misery and sorrow. Zach then runs through a scenario of how their lives would have gone if he had told the truth. He tells her that misery and sorrow is nothing compared to what's coming next. Zach then repeats his promise to stand by her and protect her. He asks Kendall if she will let him make it up to her.

After making love, Ryan is bound and determined to tell Greenlee the truth behind his disappearance from Pine Valley. She drinks in the look on his face and states that she changed her mind - she doesn't want to know right now because it's not that important. She turns her back to him and wraps herself in his arms, but this does nothing to deter Ryan. He tells her that while he loves her with everything that is in him, he hasn't always loved her the right way. While he was gone, he didn't lack the presence of mind to know who he was or how to get in touch. He tells her that in the end, he didn't believe in the perfection that they had as a couple, so he drove his bike off the cliff as a way to get as far away from her as he could - so that she would be safe. When he opened his eyes and realized he had survived the fall, he felt that Death had cheated him. He knew she wouldn't be safe with him, so it was then that he decided to lie. After seeing the scene in the suite repeated in his head, where he had his fist raised to his wife's face, he knew he had to make a choice. He admits that at the bottom of the cliff, very much alive, he chose not to go back to Greenlee. He tells her that he went over the cliff on purpose, to save her, to give her the life that she deserved - one that he was certain he would rob her of had he stayed. While Greenlee tries to cling to the idea that Ryan's survival was a miracle, he dismantles it little by little. He tells her that he believed that she couldn't be happy with him the way that he was. Therefore, when he came out of the water, he decided to give her a life back by taking away his. He was sure that the tears would stop, that she would laugh again - especially with the new life she had growing inside her. Greenlee brokenly tries to tell him that she lost the baby, but he tells her that he already knows. Stunned, Greenlee asks how he could know. He tells her that she told him - that he was hiding at Erin's house when Greenlee went up to Nova Scotia. She begs him to tell her how she could be so close to him and yet he wouldn't reveal that he was alive. Before he can answer, she asks if her losing the baby is the reason he came back. He tells her that he heard the pain that she carried when she talked to Erin about their child, and knew that she would remain in a limbo because he was gone. He admits that he came back because he wanted to help her back from that pain. Resentfully, she then tells him that she can never carry a child to term, and that it would have been good if they had known that before he rode his bike off the cliff. Ryan reaches out to try to comfort Greenlee, but once the bitterness crept back in, the anger quickly followed. She tears pictures from her shrine to him off the wall, and clears the frames arranged on the table off with one fell swoop. Before she can affect any more damage, Ryan manages to grab her in a vice-like hug. She breaks out of it and demands that he never touch her again. Ryan insists that he has more to tell her, things that will explain what happened while he was away in Canada and why he changed. Greenlee, in her anger, dares him to try to explain. He tells her that he found the answers he needed in Canada - and he knew that she was right: the anger was not a part of him, he wasn't like his father. Greenlee is shocked that he could stand there and tell her that she was right, when the entire time he was away, she was dying inside for him. He swears that he did it to protect her, but she reminds him that by leaving - he ripped her heart out. She tells him that she can't believe he expects her to forgive him when her word, her belief in him, in their love, wasn't enough to keep him with her. He took her choice away - again, and she lets on that he will feel the full brunt of her fury. Ryan, humbled by her ire, apologizes and says he was wrong. Ryan tries to explain again why he made the choices that he did, and reveals that he has hope they can be together again. He also admits that he wants to give her back the choice that he stole from her...and that if she chooses not to be with him again, so be it. He begs her to let him try to make it up to her."

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